My Life, My soul
Who : Me
What : Abondoned Life
When : 02.07.1990
Where: In her heart
Abandoned Soul
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Thoughts REMIXED
I am tinking again...yes...i know i shouldn't...but these tots just keep coming to me...no matter how i try to shake it off...it wun...
My friend called me the other day...remind me of something i dun 1 to remember...i know i'm running away from reality...but it's someting that is buried deep inside me heart...and just when i tot that no1 can dig out again...
IT happens...
I'm just wondering...does every human being is always expose to these kind of pressure...trying very hard to forget someting...but it just will not come off the mind...
I realise that things that u can forget easily is just sometings that dun make a impact on your life or someting that dosen't have a meaning to u...
However the opposite will happen to u if that someting is so important that it even change ur life or the way people look at you...for the worst...it will leave a deep scar in ur heart...living on with these scars...as long as you are alive...u would not forget the events...
Is there really a way to be a saint...but...does a saint dun have tinking like a normal human...?
(Blogging while designing the cash voucher for the club...headache using flash CS3...)Labels: thoughts
inOUR world
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
getting back
Just when i tot i am refreshed...i realize that not been very productive recently...not in shooting, not in work, not in many things...
Today...it's just really not my day...i got so many things in my mind right now...but i just can't spell it out in words...not a single word...
I am just like a super busy man today...Cityhall in the morning, School in the noon then Range for training in the afternoon...Dinner near my house, after that met my friends to pass him somethings ...reach home ard 11p.m. *Phew*
And...i wasn't really myself today either...dun speak much...sort of EMO today...dun know y...maybe i am just too tired to say anything...or i just feel too restless...i want to slp...to forget everything...
Sometimes i just really want to sleep through out the whole day to forget everything...including myself...but i know...i can't do that...
I really wonder...how perfect can i be...? Yes...i know...even superheros need a break...but what are the things that can refresh me mentally...? I am not like any other superheros in Marvel or DC. I am just a normal guy wanting to have some normal life...sometimes i really envy those who are so carefree all the time...
Ya...i know...being too carefree all the time it's not good...but human do need sometimes to destress/relax...or else...u will end up being crazy...
With the things i had in mind now...playing games, surfing net, listening to music, watching movies, sleeping..can't help shaking all those things off my mind...i may even end up bring paranoid...hahaha...
So of my friends envy me...saying that i almost have every thing for my current life...but...if that's really the case...i won't be posting this right now...having almost everything does not mean hav EVERYTHING...but the thing i does not have right now...it's also the most important thing i need now...
I just can't help shaking off the thirst for the things i earn now...it's not some things that can be describe using words...i really wonder...it's there anything i can do to pull myself back...? I won't fall but...i want to get back to my old self ASAP...Labels: refreshed?
inOUR world
Monday, September 1, 2008
REFRESHED
HIIII ALLL...it's been quite long ever since i last updated my blog...
Just finish my NIKE+ human race yesterday...and I'm super tired now...yesterday feast seems not enough for me...i WANT MORE !!!
I tink i should spam junk food soon... :P
Nothing special happens today...and as always...normal and boring...since i can't find any job...i tink i gona rot at home everyday again...ARGH....I HATE TO ROT...
Hmm...been tinking about her recently...confused...wad should i do...? Tell her about how i feel abt her...or just remain silence...? I GOT no idea...!!! Maybe...it's just that i dun have to courage to tell her...and sub-consciously...i been avoiding that topic when she is around...or act as if i dun care about her... i dun like this kind of feeling...i feel like as if i am destroying myself, my heart... I tried opening my mouth...but it feel as if i should not say it or it's not the right time for this topic...
I really wish to be together with her...
keep her accompany all the time...cheer her up when she is sad...show my concern to her... shower her with love...
I dun have the courage to tell her
I dun have the courage to face wad is gona happen if she dun accept me
I dun have the courage to face wad will happen to our friendship...will she hate me after that...?
I really dun know...can any1 tell me wad to do...?Labels: crush, refreshed
inOUR world